We carry inside us the wonders we seek outside us. Rumi.
”I am deeply passionate and have the confidence that respectfully collaborating with entheogenic plant spirits, within a safe set & setting contributes to profound healing”
Both are gateways to your inner world. Tools to help you feel what has remained unconscious and to release old stories that keep you from living freely.
The path of self-inquiry often begins with restlessness, or big life questions like “Who am I really?” or “What am I here to do?”
Maybe you feel stuck in life, burnt out, or emotionally disconnected. These are signals of something old that wants to be heard.
Whether you choose a Leela process or a plant ceremony: both are powerful ways to meet yourself on a deeper level. To revisit the root of depression, burnout, addiction, attachment struggles or unresolved trauma and this time, to truly meet it.
As a Leela therapist and psychedelic process guide, I move between therapy, spirituality, and awakening. My approach is holistic and grounded in direct experience. You don’t learn to work with plants from theory, you learn through the depth of your own process.
Years of inner work, study and expanded states of consciousness through ayahuasca and psilocybin have shown me what healing requires: a safe steady container, a therapeutic framework, and an honest relationship with the plant itself, built long before I start guiding others.
My foundation lies in the psychology of the Circle of Life, body-oriented therapy, Tibetan Buddhism, shamanism, and the teachings of pioneers like Stanislav Grof, Gabor Maté, and Elisabeth Kübler-Ross.
Read more about my personal path…
My mission
About Carlijn Revermann
I’ve always been a curious person. Although I lost that curiosity for a long time.
The disappointment
Is this it? Is this really how I’m supposed to live my life?
Those thoughts came in my early twenties. After school and study had no idea what I wanted, who I was, how to be a woman, or what my feelings meant. So I did what seemed logical: I started working. Just like everyone else.
An office job in the corporate world. I was good at organising, pleasing, adapting. But I wasn’t happy.
I was good at hiding behind the masks. “I’m fine.” “I’m independent.” “I can handle this.”
But inside, something started to twist. Because if this was life, something felt deeply off.
I felt blocked, and I still didn’t know who I really was. I just knew that this wasn’t it.
Stuck in Patterns
I was stuck in patterns I’d known since my teens. Like eating disorders I kept carefully hidden, and a controlling energy that showed up in everything I did. And above all a lot of self-judgment. Never good enough.
On the outside a social young woman but on the inside I felt insecure. I was in a constant, silent fight.
But I did feel a strong pull toward health and a holistic approach of life. That’s where my transformation started.
The Masks for protection
The friendly, helpful or sociable woman. These masks covered up the fear and the insecurity. They gave me control.
But underneath, the real question lived: who am I really? Can I even trust what I feel?
There was a rigid part in me that had once been a free and wild child. Over time, that child had been taken over by control and the urge to fit in. That became my normal. Until it started to block me. Because I wanted to be free.
Re-living My Birth: Fighting to Survive
Through journeys into my subconscious with ayahuasca and psilocybin, I began to understand where this survival mode came from.
My birth with umbilical cord wrapped around my neck, a lack of oxygen and landing in a strange new world.
I came into life fighting. Because if I didn’t fight, I’d die. That primal, animal feeling became an unconscious deeply rooted believe. Fight to survive. Don’t trust anyone. Do it all yourself and then I’ll be safe.
Life kept reflecting that back to me. I kept ending up in situations that felt like survival.
Trying to control everything. But underneath was the raw pain of my birth.
Ayahuasca and the Circle of Life
What I couldn’t find, found me through ayahuasca and psilocybin mushrooms.
A powerful plant medicine that, together with the insight of the Circle of Life, brought me home again. It gave me a new perspective on myself and on the world.
I kept meeting my own birth over and over again. It was a physical experience that still lived in my body.
I re-lived the fear, the fight, and the release. Each time with more awareness, more surrender and more love.
The Circle of Life – from conception, to birth, life, death, and return to the source became my compass.
I came to understand that every phase carries essential imprints, which later show up in patterns of pain and destruction. And that if I don’t fully feel and heel those experiences, I will continue to block myself from living freely.
I went through deeply valuable processes around my personal history from conception till now. Each one brought me closer to who I truly am.
Freedom and the Mystery of Life
I discovered my core being. It’s joyful, energetic, wise and creative. I now play guitar, sing, dance, and I’ve found what I’m good at. And that’s the work I now share, embody and live.
I’m not perfect or enlightened, but I’m becoming more conscious day by day. I’m learning from life to see through the ego, the masks and the old stories.
Life still brings challenges, but I see them more like important lessons that want to be learned.
They keep me curious about myself and others.
Life touches me more deeply when I keep listening to the quiet voice within.
Joop van der Hagen is my mentor in the therapeutic and holistic work with plant medicine, spiritual growth and the path of awareness. He trained me as a process therapist, taught me to work with Leela therapy and helped me understand how the psychology of the Circle of Life is reflected in our patterns today.
I believe that only through compassion one can truly see the truth within themselves
Through psychedelic plant ceremonies and psilocybin retreats I offer a safe, warm environment and guide people to explore themselves and supporting them to build greater confidence and self-awareness in their lives. In this honest en open circle there is space for everything. I stand next to you with a non-judgemental attitude, patience, calmness and a touch of humor.
My goal is to provide support so that you have the opportunity to investigate and discover your own truth and talents and to feel what needs to be feld.
My work is deeply intuitive. Singing, silence, dancing, music, and enjoying what it means to be human together.
This is where we move beyond shame into healing.
Understand yourself again, so you can choose to enjoy being you.
Have you been inspired by this story?
Feel free to send an email; who knows, we might meet during the monthly psychedelic plant processes or an individual psilocybin session.
Warms,
Carlijn
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